it means.

Yeah, he disrespected me again. he said he will wait till im alright to do such things yet there he was, after looking up and knowing that im there looking at him, putting his arms all over that girl and his face in her chest.

My heart aches to see him puke, feel wasted and drunk. i know how he feels when hes drunk, his stomach gets upset, he can break out in cold sweat too if its really bad. i very much want to bend down and take care of him in my arms - but hes choosen another's arms.

Then he said: "break already means break already la, what else you want from me?"

These words crushed my heart. even when he's no longer mine, he still has ways to hurt me. my tears just cant stop flowing. there i was again, crying buckets outside zouk.